Little Thoughts

I won't forget :') cause once upon a time, you gave me something I never thought I needed and I'm thankful for the memories.

Unforgettable Christmas

Hi 2012! This is my first post since last year, umm half year ago actually lol. Let's have a little talk about my .. holiday, my special holiday \=D/ hahayy!

My own story starts at December 3rd lol. But I wouldn't let you know what so special about it, haha it was just an unique "start" lol and i told ya, the start will always be the hardest :p

Hmm, the first 2 weeks of the holiday, can be said that I spent my days at church, besides practicing and rehearsing at school for the Christmas Celebration haha. I helped making a Christmas tree from unused plastic bottles and plastic cups along with the church’s youth group. It was an unforgettable experience, maybe best Christmas experience ever! First we collected the materials from the garbage and then cleaned them; my friend who’s an architecture student made the Christmas tree design and its structure, very cool! Hahaha. I stayed in the church from afternoon till night, and it took around 9days until the Christmas tree is done.

Andd.. I made friend with some of the nicest person you’ll ever met, there at the church haha, and I was kind of reunited with my old-best friends there. I don’t know what made this experience so special, but this was surely the best part of the holiday. I am really thankful for the people I met there, the experiences I made with my new best friends, and for everything! I’m becoming more thankful and more religious this Christmas. lol (amenn)

At Christmas Eve, I went to church for the Christmas service at 10pm with my friends, hmm first Christmas with fellas! :D and guess what, I got a special Christmas gift from someone, given right in front of the Christmas Tree! Lol .... my friends are all incredible! Hahaha, then we took lots of photos there, ahh memories :’). It was the craziest Christmas Eve everrr! hahaha and at the Christmas Day, I went to my aunt’s house, celebrating Christmas with my mom’s big family, Christmas Dinner, sharing presents, and of course, we took lots of photos! It's been a while since my last Christmas party with fams n fellas.. lol

ahh I learned so muchh last December. Well, I can't stop saying that last December was sooo special for me <3. I learned that the greatest thing would come when you least expect it. And suddenly life just showed me something I never thought I needed. :) I am soo thankful! You never know how the little things in life, even the simplest things on earth could bring so much joy in your life! ♥

After all, this is the best holiday ever! And I’d give anything to go back to December 2011 and stay there for forever, anything! I love DECEMBER 2011.


Quotes of the day ...

"For the way it is something that i never choose, but at the same time something i don't wanna lose."

Be Strong!

Hello, long time no see! hm, I've been going through ups and downs recently. But you know, I told them that they can't bring me down for so long. Because my God is wayy bigger than them! :D

Yeah, at first it started out like Heaven, where I feel happiness all the time. But I know, nothing lasts forever, time flies & people change. Don't delay goodbye, cause the longer I feel heaven, the harder it will be to accept the truth. Goodbye will come sooner or later. And now, I've decided to go. It is the best way to end everything. I know God has a bigger plan for me than I had for my self and I just have to wait. 

Umm, btw I have a good song by Bruno Mars to be shared, I love the lyrics, soo inspirational :)

Here it is,

Today My Life Begins
 

I've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if I'd ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and i've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets
so I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins
today my life begins...

Patience :)

Do you know how beautiful this world would be, if everyone could just lower down our ego, anger & try to be more patient? Well, it's such a hard thing to do, especially when we are overwhelmed by hatred. But it's the most important thing we could ever do to reach our happiness & to know what's the purpose of life. Sometimes we do everything without thinking the consequences, we're doing anything using our brain more than our heart. That's why you find it hard to be more patient. You must try to use your heart more than your brain, do something that can satisfy your heart too, not only your brain. Understand something with your heart, sometimes it knows something better than anything. Believe in what you feel, not in what other people's say. By doing that, you can try to be more patient in doing anything. You know, because of patience, you can see the goods in everything. Because of patience, you can love someone unconditionally. Because of patience, you won't fight & break up with the ones you loved. Because of patience, you will be more grateful in life & be happy. Imagine how you would love your life if you try to be more patient. :) God bless!

"Patience is the greatest of all virtues." - Cato de Elder

I'm Back! :D

Hey! I told you before that problems won't bring me down! haha, yeah and I prove it now! Being sad & mellow for a while that's fine, but not too long. We've got to move on and be strong! :D

Well. Yesterday was a blast! hahaha, I'm supposed to post this yesterday actually, but I was so 'busy' yesterday, lol. there was Easter Celebration at my beloved school. hahaha, a little ceremony, 'Jesus is Alive' production, - yeah! finally that production is over! I'm happy cause that means no more practice on Tuesday & Saturday, yihaa! xP - after that, we had a little 'photo-shoot', me and my friends posed as a zombie, scared the other members lol. It seemed like 'Ghost is Alive' photo shoot haha well I'm just kidding on this, no offense :p. And after that we had a competition to decorate Easter Eggs with 'Jesus is Alive' theme (again lol). My group members were Grace, Aldo & Haci haha, we were reallyyyy lazy to do that, so we started by buying things that we need and then just sitting around, only did a little decoration ... until the time was almost over! haha, the we hurried and what soo funny was, at the last minutes,- usually the girls supposed to finish the project and boys are usually play around. But, yesterday it was reversed! lol, - my friend, Aldo finished the project & I played tekken in his PSP for the first time, and I won! hahaha *i'm proud* :p i don't care if the result of the eggs are not so good, but at least I enjoyed spending a happy time with my best friends & freed me from stress! haha, and after I got home, I went to CP for "Jakarta for Jesus" KKR with Jeha, Lenny, Grace & my beloved counselor-teacher, Ms.Sisca haha, it was soooo crowded, more like a concert than a KKR, because Vaness Wu was there! wohoooo :D but to make sure, we were there for Jesus! haha, and to renewed my spirit :D after all, I really enjoyed this day, happiest day since that Friday lol. At least, I believe that God, families & friends are always here to lift me up when I am down. Thanks God, thanks everybody ♥ GBU :)

GOODBYE

What a 'huge' present (message) I received today, well you're right, you're thinking about your & my future. And I know it's the best way to end everything. I promise that we'll both make our separate way, and find our own happy endings. Thank you for all the lessons you've taught me.Thank you for all the memories you had given me. You've made me who I am today. Thank you for everything. I won't cry, I won't reply, and maybe that will be our last conversation. But the memories will always stay here, in my heart. 

And I hope, if we ever meet again someday, please remember me as your best friend, your classmate when we were in grade 7, and the one who has ever been in your life before. And when that day comes, I hope to see each one of us with our own happy life, you & I become a man & a woman. God bless you. I wish you love & I wish you luck. :)